Friends

Surprise!  I'm back!  Been a while, I know.  But I'm not dead, I promise.  I just need to vent a little, then I might be gone a while again.  Too many things going on right now to post regularly.

I love my friends.  The few I have left.  It seems that more and more the friends I used to have are disappearing or are just getting too busy with their own lives to care about me anymore.  That's fine.  I don't have a problem with that.  The only thing I hate is that I really need friendship right now.  Things are really hard at the moment, and I don't even have anyone to talk to about it.  I have a lot going on, but does anyone know that?  No.  Because no one asks anymore.  I don't get texts anymore.  I don't get phone calls.  I don't even get the random note on my Facebook wall asking how I'm doing anymore.  I try to get people together for small gatherings or whatnot, but everyone always turns me down.  Guess a night at the bar is more important.  *Shrug*

I get it.  I'm married now, so I get cut off, I guess.  I understand I can't go out to the bar.  I get that I can't go out and party all night like I used to.  I get that.  I understand that.  It's just a little bit irritating that since I can't do those things, it's almost as if my friends have all but forgotten me completely.  Out of sight, out of mind, right?  I guess that works more easily than I had once imagined.

I'd just like to be asked to go out to coffee to see how my life is going every once in a while by the people that once spent a ton of time partying with me.  I'd like to think I matter more than just a party buddy.

Blah.  I'm just bitching.  Frustrated and irate.  Just wish I could talk about it.



*Okay, I have to add an edit.  I do get a few texts here and there from a few select people.  And to those people, I would like to say thank you.  I really do appreciate you.