Surprise! I'm back! Been a while, I know. But I'm not dead, I promise. I just need to vent a little, then I might be gone a while again. Too many things going on right now to post regularly.
I love my friends. The few I have left. It seems that more and more the friends I used to have are disappearing or are just getting too busy with their own lives to care about me anymore. That's fine. I don't have a problem with that. The only thing I hate is that I really need friendship right now. Things are really hard at the moment, and I don't even have anyone to talk to about it. I have a lot going on, but does anyone know that? No. Because no one asks anymore. I don't get texts anymore. I don't get phone calls. I don't even get the random note on my Facebook wall asking how I'm doing anymore. I try to get people together for small gatherings or whatnot, but everyone always turns me down. Guess a night at the bar is more important. *Shrug*
I get it. I'm married now, so I get cut off, I guess. I understand I can't go out to the bar. I get that I can't go out and party all night like I used to. I get that. I understand that. It's just a little bit irritating that since I can't do those things, it's almost as if my friends have all but forgotten me completely. Out of sight, out of mind, right? I guess that works more easily than I had once imagined.
I'd just like to be asked to go out to coffee to see how my life is going every once in a while by the people that once spent a ton of time partying with me. I'd like to think I matter more than just a party buddy.
Blah. I'm just bitching. Frustrated and irate. Just wish I could talk about it.
*Okay, I have to add an edit. I do get a few texts here and there from a few select people. And to those people, I would like to say thank you. I really do appreciate you.
